ATYIPICAL SQUAMOUS CELLS
Something moved inside me,
It's life,
My heart beats a bit faster,
Guess fear decided to be my audience today.
I still remember it like it was yesterday, waiting for my name to be called out, it was the screams that always brought me back to reality. Women screaming only to come out smiling"it actually wasn't that bad" they'd say . As if that could make me shake any less. I was about to take a life changing test, a Colposcopy. You see, a piece of my cervix was going be cut out to check for cancerous cells.
"Can you cough for me miss, I need to get a big piece for accuracy" as if I wasn't in much pain already with her claws digging into my vagina. I'm not sure what birth feels like but god was I praying for a reverse in the yet to come results. Have you prayed so many times but planned for the worst results nevertheless. I told myself that if I can't have kids, I'd adopt or find myself a husband with kids, right after I tell him that my womb had been removed. If only someone had told me that the wait was worse then the procedure, I would have dug myself a no- worries hole. It was the longest four weeks of my life.
You see, "90% of all carcinomas of the cervix are of the squamous cell type. The cervix is the extension of the uterus into the top part of the vagina. A small passage through the middle of the cervix leads into the cavity of the uterus. In a normal situation, squamous epithelium lines the cervix from this opening outwards. The inside of the cervix normally has a more fragile epithelium lining, which under normal circumstances is not exposed to the environment. Certain hormonal changes such as pregnancy and the oral contraceptive pill may cause the inner lining from inside the cervix to migrate outwards to be visible on the outside of the cervix. This is sometimes referred to as an erosion by doctors" (www.myvmc.com).
The day had come for me to get my results. I walked in and sat up straight wondering what if... It's funny how we always act like we can take the truth when our hearts are already drowning from the doubtful mind. "The tests came back negative, come back after two years". I'm not sure I heard the first part but I wanted to be sure. "Sorry", I asked as if it would change the result. Right there and then the world became beautiful through my eyes..
I felt hope move inside me,
Life came alive.
I'm not sure where fear hid,
and I did not care.
Woman should go for a Pap smear check-up atleast once in their lives.Early detection saves lives..
It's life,
My heart beats a bit faster,
Guess fear decided to be my audience today.
I still remember it like it was yesterday, waiting for my name to be called out, it was the screams that always brought me back to reality. Women screaming only to come out smiling"it actually wasn't that bad" they'd say . As if that could make me shake any less. I was about to take a life changing test, a Colposcopy. You see, a piece of my cervix was going be cut out to check for cancerous cells.
"Can you cough for me miss, I need to get a big piece for accuracy" as if I wasn't in much pain already with her claws digging into my vagina. I'm not sure what birth feels like but god was I praying for a reverse in the yet to come results. Have you prayed so many times but planned for the worst results nevertheless. I told myself that if I can't have kids, I'd adopt or find myself a husband with kids, right after I tell him that my womb had been removed. If only someone had told me that the wait was worse then the procedure, I would have dug myself a no- worries hole. It was the longest four weeks of my life.
You see, "90% of all carcinomas of the cervix are of the squamous cell type. The cervix is the extension of the uterus into the top part of the vagina. A small passage through the middle of the cervix leads into the cavity of the uterus. In a normal situation, squamous epithelium lines the cervix from this opening outwards. The inside of the cervix normally has a more fragile epithelium lining, which under normal circumstances is not exposed to the environment. Certain hormonal changes such as pregnancy and the oral contraceptive pill may cause the inner lining from inside the cervix to migrate outwards to be visible on the outside of the cervix. This is sometimes referred to as an erosion by doctors" (www.myvmc.com).
The day had come for me to get my results. I walked in and sat up straight wondering what if... It's funny how we always act like we can take the truth when our hearts are already drowning from the doubtful mind. "The tests came back negative, come back after two years". I'm not sure I heard the first part but I wanted to be sure. "Sorry", I asked as if it would change the result. Right there and then the world became beautiful through my eyes..
I felt hope move inside me,
Life came alive.
I'm not sure where fear hid,
and I did not care.
Woman should go for a Pap smear check-up atleast once in their lives.Early detection saves lives..
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